saat melihat tikungan..

berada disatu titik check point untuk mencapai mimpi2 kita terkadang berbahaya. setiap sampai pada titik tersebut, planing adalah hal yang harus dilaksanakan untuk mencapai detil perjalanan selanjutnya. dan sayangnya, kebanyakan kasus setelah kita pada titik tersebut, apa yang ada didepan akan sangat berbeda dengan apa yg difikirkan sebelumnya. ibarat pohon yang semakin tinggi akan semakin bercabang. saya kira semua orang akan menghadapi hal tersebut, setelah seseorang bekerja keras untuk memperoleh apa yang mereka inginkan, saya menyebutnya check point, kecuali seorang syahid yg pasti finish..mereka akan mecari kembali (baca: plan) apa yang seharusnya dikejar. sebuah teori bagus tentnag planing ini adalah, semakin kita jauh berfikir, maka sesungguhnya makin besar deviasi dan semakin kecil peluang kita mencapainya, kecuali kita bisa memetakan tiap2 check point, dan orang2 yg detail lah yg akan menang. seperti kata pepatah (entah dari mana??) detail is devil.. jika kita tidak bisa mengendalikan, maka kita akan terjerumus.

suatu check point, tidak hanya berlaku untuk masalah karir belaka, dari mulai karir, cinta, hidup, menjaga kesehatan, bahkan sampai hal2 sepele seperti jadwal makan, semua dapat kita rencanakan.. sepertinya manusia itu pekerjaannya hanya 2, berencana, lakukan, berencana, lakukan, berencana, lakukan.. tak ada habis2nya hingga umur selesai..

bagi saya, saat ini adalah check point, saya memang mempunyai rencana besar kedepan,, tapi setelah berada pada check point, dan melihat realita yg ada, entah mengapa saya ingin sedikit memutar.. saya ingin berbelok sedikit, karena sepertinya sangat menarik, yaa,, sangat menarik, tikungan ini sangat menarik, jalannya bagus, tidak yang seperti yg saya rencanakan sebelumnya, terjal.. saya ingin mencoba mengevaluasi apa yang telah saya putuskan.. saya katakan disini, bukan keputusan besar saya yang akan saya ubah, saya hanya ingin mengganti rencana 2 atau 3 tahun saya kedepan. I found something, saya merasa, inilah hidup saya yang seharusnya dijalani, inilah partner terbaik saya, minimal 3 tahun kedepan..

saya kira, saya akan mulai memikirkan untuk melepas sejenak apa yang ada di negeri yang indah itu, saya ingin memulai pengalaman disini, negeri yang berbahaya,, karena untuk beberapa hal, saya bosan dengan kehidupan yang biasa2 saja.. walaupun banyak orang menilai hidup saya memang sudah aneh sejak dulu.. tak apa2.. saya hanya ingin menjadi kuat,, sehingga saat kembali nanti, saya akan berbeda.. dengan cara berfikir yang sama, namun dengan amunisi yang berbeda.. kini saat yg tepat menghapus masalalu dan memulai masa depan..

My life changed..

almost two months in Japan, everything has changed. yeah.. Honestly, I really miss my passing life,, I have finally realized that one years ago is funniest time for me. in Japan, everything goes fast.. haha,,, i don’t know why the sun really fast to go from east to west.. some times, I have never seen sun perfectly.. grr… moreover, I have never really enjoyed holiday here.

but I think, it is OKE.. coz I came here not to play, noy to enjoy the holiday, and of course not to make vacation.. I just want to finish my study ASAP, so I can come back to Indonesia and do something. but now, dont worry about that, I just enjoy this time now, all off those are very perfect, except suicide.. hahaa..

I am happy to find great community, find great people. yeah,, Japanese has great attitute, behavior, etc. (notes: at Tokyo Tech). what I really realized is Japanese has same mind with me. I don’t talk about religion that Indonesian usually use it to cover bad behavior, to cover their scare in socialization or to find justification of what they has done. Japanese has perfect behavior in socialization. I don’t know why, I tried to analyze it, and I come to conclusion that Japanese has great shame. because their have it, they are really careful on their behavior.. it build good character. what is such as character?? first, they always keep their promise, second, they always afraid if what they do can disturb other. if they think it will disturb someone, no matter who he/she is, he will make permission. third, their behavior are stable.. if they find bad idea, or stress, or under pressure, they are usually just silent. they are also be honest. talk everything.. some people said that japanese is very difficult to interact with foreign,, but I assure that is wrong. although I can’t speak Japanese, they keep open his mind to me.

I compare it at ITB,, grrr… I think, ITB students have to see this.. when kohai is like VVIP guest. when every people do respect with other,

respect,, respect,, respect,, it is what they do here..!!

and let see what they do to kohai,, and compare it with what ITB students do for his Junior.. haha,, I am sorry to say,, you are really stupid and do stupid thing.. and ITB student (not all student) more and more stupid coz you said you are intelligent people.. and I will keep my promise to obviate that stupid student a time.. :D

yeahh.. I can wait it.. here, I just make stronger mind with international society.. and I will learn it to you all.. I am still remember when someone said to me, if you want to change what is occurred at ITB, you have to follow it first, and change it, he also said, every people aware that it is not good,, but a very little person want to do it,, I wonder the stupid sentence come from chief of one community at ITB.. you know it wrong, and you just silent where as you are leader?? hahaa,, actually, the student just affraid.. yes,, every one is afraid to do alteration.. so, I will come soon.. :)

for know, I just enjoy my time, my community here, with great people who have great behavior.. and I will come back, and teach you all (ITB student) about what is respect.. ( kalo bahasa indonesianya, mereka salah pergaulan.. :D )

Negeri sakura

I was surprised when I started to see my blog again. yeahh,, it is long time no see, no comment, no post, no.. no.. no.. :P . but it is no problem. posting kali ini akan sangat spesial karena saya menulis blog ini di tempat lebih dari 5700 Km dari Jakarta, Ibu kota tercinta. ya Jeepaaanng.. I can’t believe that I will write my blog here. tapi Alhamdulillah, semua sudah settle dalam arti tidak ada lagi kegalauan yang menghinggap. kalau boleh kasih penilaian sedikit, Jepang itu negara rapih.. sesuatu yang kalau di Indonesia hanya menjadi wacana dan kampanye bila membahas tentang negara, maka Jepang telah menerapkan, less talk, big action.. kelemahan jepang yang membuat saya sulit tinggal disini hanya 2, bencana alam dan bahasa.. haha, I have said before (if not, then I will say it.. :P ), I am not like japan lover yang selalu merasa semua yang dari jepang itu sangat menarik, good style, and patut ditiru.. but I am not hate japan. okey, topik kali ini adalah apa yang saya nilai dari Jepang.. (baru terfikir sekarang…)

1. Jepang negara maju,

ya eyaa lahhh.. memang terlihat gak penting sih nih judul, semua orang jg tau.. tapi implikasi dari itu semua yang mungkin gak semua orang tau.. mungkin hanya satu kata yang dapat diungkapkan, teratur, teratur, teratur.. (jadi 3 kata..) ini nih yang menyenangkan sekaligus menyebalkan.. haha, contoh kecil saat naik kereta, entah mengapa tuh kereta selalu berhenti di tempat yang sama, dan waktu yang sama. kalau di Indonesia saya kesal karena kereta telat, kali ini saya kesal karena kereta selalu sesuai.. wkwkwk.. ini beneran kesel lho.. kesel karena iri maksdnya, kenapa bisa seperti ini?? saya mencatat rekor telat kereta api di jepang selama sebulan hanya 3 kali. 2 kali terlambat 4 menit (gak tau kenapa telatnya, tapi saya seneng banget, sambil sungut2 hha,, telat juga loe Jepang.. waktu gw berharga nehh.. sok lebay) waktu itu pengumuman diulang2 berkali2, kenapa jg ini pada berisik, secara saya cm ngerti kata sumimasen (benergaktuhtulisannya..:P) dan itu berulang2.. opzz,, satu lagi telat, ini yg bikin heboh,, kereta telat 1 jam. wkwkwk.. semua orang panik, officer pada bungkuk2 minta maaf.. dan seperti biasa, pengumuman dilakukan, tapi gak ngerti bahasanya. kyknya sih ada yg bunuh diri, sialnya itu dihari penting kuliah perdana salah satu mata kuliah tersulit.. -____- but it is okey, sensei disini sangat mengerti kalau kereta terlambat, jadi dimaafkan.. :D gelandangan, pengemis, pedagang kaki lima, pedagang asongan, jgn harap deh ada disini.. yg ada jg mbak2 cantik yg menawarkan tissue sebagai promosi. atau pengamen yg tujuannya bukan minta duit receh kyk di Indonesia, melainkan mereka jual CD album dan berharap ketemu produser. kl di indonesia mana mungkin. haha,,

sebenernya itu aja sih yang mau diomongin… jadi.. SEKIAN..

*garing..

Earache (2)

After successfully makes me shame.. she repeated her question for me. ‘What is your problem?’. I said, ‘I have problem with my ear because my balance is disturbed’. ‘Good answer..’ she said with lip smile.. ‘so, which one?’.. I said ‘right ear’.. it is the last question for me. After that, she just check my ear, my mouth, and my nose with her tools. Amazing, the tools have micro camera, so everything in my ear, my nose, and my mouth appeared clearly in the monitor. The monitor relatively wide. I think approximately 20 inch square wide screen.. :P I just do what she said. After that, she said again to me.

Mr. Bentang, your ear is clean. I don’t see any dirt or something that closed your ear. But I surprised find ‘adenoid’ in your nose. I think, it is the problem. What is your ages??

I quiet at moment.. and then I said, 23 years old..

Wow, it is really strange.. as I know, when people have fourteen age, adenoid will be vanish.. you have children problem.. especially for baby. Baby is often get this problem. The problem is upper nose flu. This flu can make your ear disturbed. The feeling is like when you use plane. Have you ever used plane?

Yeaahhh,,, that is it, I got it, this feeling is really like that.. since I have ever gone by plane, I know how it feel..

Actually adenoid is useful to avoid virus. So your body strength will increase to attack virus. But if you got upper flu.. your ear will be disturbed.

I just quite  at moment because I don’t understand what she said. After they give me prescription, I go out from check up room. Wahhhhhh… I feel free.. maybe you cannot feel it because my story not to good, but, I want to say,, I really feel free.. in fact, the doctor really arrogant.. I felt pressure and I was like suspect…   :(

And then, I went home by train again.. ups, before that, I bought medicine accord to prescription. Wow, the medicine is really expensive. 314 thousand rupiah. I got 4 tablet medicine that must be drunk two and three times a day. HUFFTT…

As usual, I never believe all of doctor said. Before I drunk my medicine, I search any information with google. Yeah, it is technological era, we can easily find about anything. Any information, especially what I need, usefulness of my medicine, can be obtained. After searching in internet, I finally find what happen with my ear. But I will briefly explain it for everyone in other chance, hehee.. :D

So, after the medicine almost run out. . I begin to feel to be cured. But, I will not say that medicine makes me significantly cured. Because, I think, I was cure because of sport like jogging and playing futsal. Yahh,, thanks god give me health again, so that I can do my activity normally again.

Earache (1)

Maybe everyone will be surprised with what happen in my ear. Two weeks ago, I was forced to go to hospital because of my ear problem. It is not because I cannot hear well, but my balance is disturbed. For me, it is not big problem, I think it will better soon. But my mother is really anxious with my ear, so I decided to go to ear specialist.

I went to hospital 6 AM approximately. Wow, I felt like fish in the box when I used electric train from Bojong Gede to Cawang station. Huft.. I cannot imagine how patient and tired people who use electric train every day for working.. actually, this question is also asked for my father.. :D

Brevity, I arrived at Budi Asih Hospital. Although the hospital is authorized by government, I surprised with good services. Hahaa,, so something that authorized by government is not meant bad thing.. :D . I took my national ID card then after waiting for thirty minutes, I get hospital ID card. It is mean I become costumer there.. of course, I hope not to go hospital again.. :( oh yeahh,,, don’t  think that I do it by myself. Actually, my mother did it for me.. She is really care with me..  I also don’t understand how to manage hospital administration.. fortunately, I have great mom in the world.. thanks mom.. :D

I get thirteen number. Wow,, I didn’t believe I can get the number since I went to hospital so early. So the next step is, I have to waiting for doctor.. this was boring moment. I was waiting almost two hours for doctor. As long as that time, I just see around, see everyone, old people, pregnant women, or anyone who need doctor.. and I became one of them.. :(

The doctor came accompanied by two young man and one young women. I guess they were doctor candidate, the student who take specialist. Wow,, it would be shame if they were in the check up room.. of course, I would be teaching material.. oh my God.. I was nervous..

My time was coming, I was called by nurse and I went to check up room. After I sit on the chair. Doctor asked me..

She said ‘what is your problem?’

I said ‘my ear was entered by water’

And then She shout ‘hello every one,, do you think this guy say right and answer my question??’

I am surprise,, ‘what the ….’

The students said ‘nooooooo…’

Good, al of you is right.. the doctor explained me that she don’t ask you ‘what is happen?’ but she said ‘what is your problem’. She also said if your ear was entered by water, and you didn’t get problem. You would not come to hospital….

GGrrrrr….. I can only shame…

To be continued.

George Andrew Olah

Master of chemistry.. i could say, he is my favorite people this month. yeah,, studying about methanol for fuel (both for internal combustion engine or fuel cell) makes me know about him. One of the greatest scientist who get nobel in 1994.

Actually, as engineer, I am not too interest with his research. but I think it is important to know basic about chemistry, especially methanol, although I am weak for it.. hahahaa… but everyone have to believe that I resumed their paper and made 5 sheets.. of course I have plan to share my resume. but before it, this is his autobiography. I take it from  http://nobelprize.org/nobel_prizes/chemistry/laureates/1994/olah-autobio.html. enjoy..!!

George Andrew Olah profile..

I was born in Budapest, Hungary, on May 22, 1927 the son of Julius Olah and Magda Krasznai. My father was a lawyer and to my best knowledge nobody in my family before had interest in science. I grew up between the two world wars and received a rather solid general education, the kind middle class children enjoyed in a country whose educational system had its roots dating back to the Austro-Hungarian Monarchy. I attended a Gymnasium (a combination of junior and senior high school) at one of the best schools in Budapest run by the Piarist Fathers, a Roman Catholic order. A strict and demanding curriculum heavily emphasizing the humanities included 8 years of Latin, with German and French as other obligatory languages. Although we had an outstanding science teacher who later became a professor of physics in the University of Budapest I can not recollect any particular interest in chemistry during my school years. My main interest was in the humanities, particularly history, literature, etc. I was (and still am) and avid reader and believe that getting attached too early to a specific field frequently shortchanges a balanced broad education. Although reading the classics in Latin in school may be not as fulfilling as it would be at a more mature age, few scientists can afford the time for such diversion later in life.

After graduating from high school and having survived the ravages of war in Budapest and realizing the difficulties facing life in a small and war torn country, I started to study chemistry upon entering university, being attracted by the wide diversity it offered.

Classes at the Technical University of Budapest were relatively small. We probably started with a class of 70 or 80, whose numbers were rapidly pared down during the first year to maybe half by rather demanding “do or die” oral examinations, where the ones who failed could not continue. This was a rather cruel process, because laboratory facilities were so limited that only few could be accommodated. At the same time the laboratory training was thorough. For example, in the organic laboratory we did some 40 Gatterman preparations. It certainly gave a solid foundation.

Organic chemistry particularly intrigued me and I was fortunate later to become a research assistant to Professor Geza Zemplen, the senior professor of organic chemistry in Hungary, who himself was a student of Emil Fischer in Berlin. He established in Hungary a reputable school in organic chemistry. As Fischer, he too expected his students to pay their own way and even paying for the privilege to work in his laboratory. Becoming an assistant to him although meant no remuneration but also no fee. Zemplen had a formidable reputation, and working for him was quite an experience. He also liked partying and these remarkable events in neighboring pubs lasted frequently for days. Certainly one’s stamina developed through these experiences.

Zemplen was a carbohydrate chemist, much interested in glycosides. Early in our association it became clear that my ideas and interest were not always closely matching his. When I suggested that fluorine containing carbohydrates may be of interest in coupling reactions, his reaction was not unexpectedly very negative. To try to pursue fluorine chemistry in post-war Hungary was indeed far fetched. Eventually, however, he gave in. Even basic chemicals needed for the work, such as HF, FSO3H or BF3 were non-existent and I made them myself, with enthusiastic help by some of my early associates (A. Pavlath, S. Kuhn). Laboratory space, particularly hoods (the kind exhausted only by draft caused by a gas burner causing warm air to raise and take some of the obnoxious fumes through a chimney) was very scarce and even by the time I became an assistant professor it was not welcome to “pollute” more important conventional work. However, the Institute which was on the second floor of the chemistry building, had in the back an open balcony, used to store chemicals. In one of his unexpected gestures Zemplen agreed that I can have the use of this balcony. With some effort we enclosed it, installed two old hoods and were soon in business in what was referred to as the “balcony laboratory”. I am not sure that Zemplen even set foot in it. We enjoyed, however, our new quaters and the implicit understanding that our fluorine chemistry and related study of Friedel-Crafts reactions and their intermediates was now officially tolerated.

Some of my publications in the early 50s from Hungary caught the eye of Hans Meerwein. It is still a mystery to me how he came to read them in a Hungrian journal, although there also was a foreign language edition of the Hungarian Chimica Acta. Anyhow, I received an encouraging letter from him and we followed up correspondence (not easy at a time in completely isolated Hungary). He must have sympathized with my difficulties because one day through his efforts I received a cylinder of boron trifluoride. What a precious gift it was!

The Hungarian educational system after the Communist takeover was realigned according to the Soviet example. University research was deemphasized and research institutes were established under the auspices of the Academy of Sciences. I was invited to join the newly established Central Chemical Research Institute of the Hungarian Academy of Sciences in 1954 and was able to establish a small research group in organic chemistry, housed in temporary laboratories of an industrial research institute. With my group, which by now also included my wife, we were able to expand our work and made the best of our possibilities. In October 1956 Hungary revolted against the Soviet rule, but the uprising was soon put down by drastic measures and much loss of life. Budapest was again devastated and the future looked rather dim. In November-December 1956 some 200,000 Hungarians, mostly of the younger generation fled their country. With my family and much of my research group we also decided to follow this path and look for a new life in the West.

I married in 1949 Judith Lengyel, the best thing ever to happen to me in my life. We knew each other from our early youth and are happily married now for more than 45 years. Judy worked initially as a technical secretary at the Technical University. After we were married she enrolled to study chemistry. She probably rightly recalls that I was entirely responsible for this step and she only agreed to get along with her single minded husband who seemed to believe that there is little in life outside chemistry. From my point of view for husband and wife to closely understand each other’s work and may even work together was most desirable. Our older son George John was born in Budapest in 1954. After we fled Hungary in early December of 1956, we reached late in December London where my wife had relatives. We subsequently moved on in the spring of 1957 to Canada, where my mother-in-law lived in Montreal after the war. During our stay in London for the first time I was able to establish personal contact with some of the organic chemists, whose work I knew and admired from the literature. I found them most gracious and helpful. In particular Christopher Ingold and Alexander Todd extended efforts on behalf of a young, practically unknown Hungarian refugee chemist in a way which I never forget and for which I am always grateful.

Dow Chemical, with its home base at Midland, Michigan was establishing at the time a small exploratory research laboratory 100 miles across the border in Sarnia, Ontario where its Canadian Subsidaries major operations were located. I was offered a position to join this new laboratory and they also hired two of my original Hungarian Collaborators, including Steven Kuhn. We moved to Sarnia in late May of 1957. As our moving expenses where paid we checked in two cardboard boxes containing all of our worldly possessions unto the train from Montreal and started our new life. Our younger son Ronald Peter was born in Sarnia in 1959. There was no possibility for Judy to continue her career at the time. Sacrificing her own career she devoted herself to bring up our children. She rejoined in our research only a decade later in Cleveland after I returned to academic life.

The Sarnia years at Dow were productive. It was during this period in the late 50′s that my initial work on stable carbocations was started. Dow was and is a major user of carbocationic chemistry, such as the Friedel-Crafts type manufacture of etylbenzene for styrene production. My work thus also had practical significance and helped to improve some industrial processes. In return I was treated well and given substantial freedom to pursue my own ideas. Eventually I was promoted to company Scientist, the highest research position without administrative responsibility.

In the spring of ’64 I transferred to Dow’s Eastern Research Laboratories in Framingham, Massachusetts established under Fred McLarrerty’s directorship. The laboratory was subsequently moved to Wayland, just outside Boston. In the summer of 1965 I was invited to join Western Reserve University in Cleveland, Ohio and returned to academic life as professor with the added responsibility of becoming also Department Chairman.

My Cleveland years were both scientifically and personally most rewarding. My wife Judy was able to rejoin me in our research and my research group grew rapidly. The chemistry departments of Western Reserve University and neighboring Case Institute of Technology were practically adjacent, separated only by a parking lot. It became obvious that it would make sense to join the two into a single, stronger department. We achieved this by 1967 with surprisingly little friction and I was asked to serve as the Chair of the joint department till things settled down. It was in 1969 that I was able to give up my administrative responsibility. As I worked hard my research never suffered during this period and as a matter of fact these were probably some of my most productive years.

After 12 years in Cleveland it was time again to move on. Our older son George was approaching the end of his college years and our younger son Ron who was finishing high school set his mind to go to Stanford. He convinced us that it should be nice for the whole family to resettle in California. Coincidentally, in the fall of 1976 Sid Benson, an old friend called me to find out whether I would be interested to join him at the University of Southern California in Los Angeles. After some visits to LA the challenge of trying to build up chemistry in a dynamic university and the attractiveness of life in Southern California convinced us to move. We fell in love with California and we still are. As USC had limited chemistry facilities, it was offered to establish a research institute in the broad area of hydrocarbon research and provide it with its own building and facilities. We moved in May of 1977. Some 15 members of my research group joined the move West. By arrangements worked out we were able to take with us most of the laboratory equipment, chemicals, etc. Two weeks after our arrival with some large moving vans we were back doing chemistry in temporary quarters, while our research institute was constructed. The Institute was established at USC with generous support by Mr. & Mrs. D.P. Loker, friends and great supporters of the University. The Institute was subsequently named after them. Don Loker passed away some years ago, but Katherine still chairs the Institute’s board. Through her and other friends’ generosity a wonderful new addition to our Institute is just completed doubling our space.

As rewarding as the Nobel Prize is personally to any scientist, I feel it is also recognition of all my past and present students and associates (by now numbering close to 200), who contributed over the years so much through their dedicated hard work to our joint effort. It also recognizes fundamental contributions by many colleagues and friends from around the world to a field of chemistry, which is not frequently highlighted or recognized.

Shell Eco-marathon -off track award-

dear all,

I am glad to inform you that shell eco marathon competition 2011 has been begun. The first competition is called off track award. since last year my team EXIA had been winner in people choice award.. of course, my successor team RAKATA would be a winner too.. so, please watch, like, and comment this link.. thank you… :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJ10RNscQSI